My pink polka dot nails ♥
Walking around with these glossy eyes. "I'm just tired," I say. But you know what? It's bullshit. Yes, I'm tired, but it's not all from lack of sleep. I'm tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired of going to bed exhaused after doing a million things i find no enjoyment in doing. I'm tired of this void, this emptiness that looms over me even though my days are packed. I'm tired of the loneliness that presses down on me even though I'm surrounded by dozens of people. So why can't i just say it? Humans are so afraid to look into each other's eyes and say "I am unhappy, I am broken, I am hopeless and fallible." I've been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, difference with disease, as if these feelings are contagious, as if ambivalence is something not to be felt but to be feared. Well, I say screw all of that. Screw forced smiles and polite handshakes and I'm fine, thank yous. Screw the fear of crying in public place, the fake chipper voice, the lies, we spit out to cover up our problemes. We are humans. We are meant to feel. To feel everything and to feel it all openly. We are not metal - we are flesh and bone. Our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands. We are intricate and beautiful and we should never hide our human parts, because if we do, then what's left to show?
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